brother peire finds peace and then kind of loses it again

Brother Peire prays the Gray Friars' evening service alone in the chapel, feeling at peace with himself and his God. He stands before the altar, because that's what the friars do, even though he feels a little self-conscious doing so. But no one is going to interrupt him – even Rainaut would wait for him to finish – so he loses himself in the songs and the chants and the praise and the entreaties. It's not until the very last song has ended that he realizes that while he still misses the feeling of standing with his brother friars in worship, it's at least as much missing the feeling of worshipping in a community as it is worshipping with fellow friars. And in any case, he seems to be cobbling together his own schedule of prayers. He doesn't mind waking up in the middle of the night to come here and pray the late night service, what the friars always called Vigils, as if they were standing watch until the dawn. One night he might even wake Rainaut to come with him, so he might learn some of the friars' ways, the same that he's taught Brother Peire some of the heretics' ways.

( Because in some of those ways, they're not so different after all. )

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